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Sunday, November 08, 2009

i decided to be dumb.



i skipped practice on tuesday.



to hang out with him.



and it was different this time,



we didn't just stay in his room,



we went out and it was fun.



and i thought it was better.



i guess he didn't.



he's hardly talked to me since.



it's been i think four days since i've heard anything from him at all.



maybe his phones been taken away or he's just busy.



or maybe he doesn't really like me.



who knows.



but i don't really know how we'd see each other anymore if he does.



guard is over (thank god) so i can't skip practice.



maybe on wednesdays when i stay after to hang with friends.



or if i snuck out again.



but i guess i shouldn't worry about it until i hear from him,



if i do that is.



and if i don't then whatever, i don't really care.



p.s. i'm sorry it's been a while and this post sucks,
i'm just so tired right now.

my next post will make up for it.


Monday, November 02, 2009

Ok, from what I can tell from your pictures your a ginger. If I'm wrong I'm deeply sorry. But If your are! (so am I) I was wondering Do you like being a ginger? Do people make fun of you for being one? Do you know what a ginger is!?

Ok, the reason I'm asking was because some people hate being a ginger (red hair & freckles). Me, personally, I love it! I think its awesome. Some people at my school always tease me and other fellow gingers, because we are one and they kind of hate it. I was just curious if you were one? How you liked it, that sorta thing. (:

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i'm a ginger and i'm proud :)
i mean i get teased but it's all in good fun,
and i really do love it.
there aren't really that many people that are gingers and its nice.
i don't really know if i'd be considered one entirely though,
my hair's more strawberry blonde, but hey.
hah, being a ginger rocks :D


are you serious?

am i really giving him another chance?



am i seriously even considering it?



i guess old habits die hard.



this addiction is too much for me to get over.



i'm still trying though. i haven't totally given up on myself.



i haven't completely decided if i want to hang out with him.



every time we do he says i'll know what he wants to do.



and he doesn't know if he would stop pushing if i said no.



we were talking and he said that sex and drugs are the only things that make him happy.



is it terrible that i want to try to save him?



i know it isn't going to work, and it only hurts me.



but i do still care about him, and i want things to be better for him.



even if he doesn't for me.



it's sad how pathetic i've become. how pathetic i've always been.



maybe if i slowly draw away it will be easier.



if i just see him less and less until we don't see each other at all.



it's better than quitting cold turkey.



and i do still want to see him.



what do you think?



click if you don't want me to know who you are, but you still want to say something or to ask random questions.


Thursday, October 29, 2009

i want to do a post.

i just don't know what to say.

or what pictures to put.

it's strange.


Monday, October 26, 2009

it was almost too late.



i almost wound up in his bed.



i will not make the same mistake again.



it is over.



and it is not going to fix.



i'm not going to fucking talk to him.



no matter how badly i want to.



no matter how much it hurts.



i will do whatever it takes.



i am not getting back into it.



he will not have me again.



i can deal without him.



i don't fucking want him.



fuck him and everything he does.



he is not worth my time at all.



and i will not waste one more moment on him.



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